My eyes are open
My mind is asleep
Truths all too hazy
Lies all too clear
Windows broken
Doors are open
Yet there’s no chance for escape
So now I shut the door
I board up the windows
Go back to bed
Now my eyes are closed
But my mind is wide awake
Sunday, March 9, 2008
Friday, March 7, 2008
Candle
I never knew the darkness before now
A wind so cold and a light with draught
The hounds that salivate at the slightest meow
The vultures that peck at the lowest lout
Without your shadow I cannot stand
I wish for the sun to touch the sky
So I can see the prints upon your hand
For my drowning eyes to finally dry
To see the clouds one last time as the sky catches our eyes
To let the air fill our lungs inches away
For me to shed an unwanted disguise
To finally fold your frown and stay
To finally seal you away from harm
To keep the ghosts away from your dreams
To once again be your charm
To once again be your theme
I hope one day this door will open
And your light will shine once again
So that my world will no longer be darkened by fear
And the sun will no longer rise from the rear
Until then I hide in seclusion
Caressed by dear delusion
And hope my mind can handle
Company from a single candle
A wind so cold and a light with draught
The hounds that salivate at the slightest meow
The vultures that peck at the lowest lout
Without your shadow I cannot stand
I wish for the sun to touch the sky
So I can see the prints upon your hand
For my drowning eyes to finally dry
To see the clouds one last time as the sky catches our eyes
To let the air fill our lungs inches away
For me to shed an unwanted disguise
To finally fold your frown and stay
To finally seal you away from harm
To keep the ghosts away from your dreams
To once again be your charm
To once again be your theme
I hope one day this door will open
And your light will shine once again
So that my world will no longer be darkened by fear
And the sun will no longer rise from the rear
Until then I hide in seclusion
Caressed by dear delusion
And hope my mind can handle
Company from a single candle
Thursday, March 6, 2008
Still Frame Phorensics
Strike a match that ignites the souls of our feet
If we decided to take a face that belongs to no one
We’ll dress the radios up in wigs
And sell portraits of flashbulb diaries
Look to the sky from your self-pity cubicle
Look to the scars and you may contort
A life of shadows and luxury indisputable
You’ll plug your privacy in life support
Scratch the itch on top of your gun
Keep running, stay away from the bees in the fray
Did you see the pothole that you dug
As you fell in when they chased you from me
Look to the throat that your princ and pauper share
Do they wear it with a camera in mind
Look to the throne that you emptied without care
To run with me and hide from time
If you need no introduction
And if they steal my fingerprints
They’ll only need a retinal confession
to find you
and If the dark room finds the answer
they will not need my fingerprints
but I will throw myself above you
to save you
If we decided to take a face that belongs to no one
We’ll dress the radios up in wigs
And sell portraits of flashbulb diaries
Look to the sky from your self-pity cubicle
Look to the scars and you may contort
A life of shadows and luxury indisputable
You’ll plug your privacy in life support
Scratch the itch on top of your gun
Keep running, stay away from the bees in the fray
Did you see the pothole that you dug
As you fell in when they chased you from me
Look to the throat that your princ and pauper share
Do they wear it with a camera in mind
Look to the throne that you emptied without care
To run with me and hide from time
If you need no introduction
And if they steal my fingerprints
They’ll only need a retinal confession
to find you
and If the dark room finds the answer
they will not need my fingerprints
but I will throw myself above you
to save you
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Greenhouse Bandages
How could this shade forget me
I just need to get my hand on an ear that’s listening
Your hostility leaves footprints all over my dentures
And the four corners of the cage you built do not show a crack
Wake me tonight before you end up lost within my dreams
So please don’t wash away that guilty tide
It washes away all the pain
My paper skin needs duct tape as the glue has made it burn
I’ve infused my jaw with sedatives and emancipated dreams
Your pulse it shows no distance has been crawled on bended knee
Though my sight has been sewn away from infidelity
Take me away to a place where your mind was schemed
So please don’t wash away that guilty tide
It washes away all the pain
Did you throw away the crown I asked to take hold of
Did they melt it down for you just like they wanted
When will you let go of these plagues trying to take you hostage
Will you let them gangrene and grow moss upon the soul
Am I the end of the lies that keep you warm
Warning of what freezes behind the sun
Does it not matter that I’ve become your feathers
Flying you away from Icaris grave
If you decide to pull this plug and crawl into the stethoscope you know
I will not turn away from this light just to push back water from your sockets
Eradicated feelings dripping from my tree
As the taunting moonlight drowns beneath the black sky you drew
Don’t wear those wings with pride the feather black from atrophy
I am that guilty spot that stained your sleeve where you wore your heart
It must in the memoirs where the truth casts a draught
A plastic hippocampus melts away
Where is this poly colored rope reaching from
That wraps a noose around no appendage
Was this the first time you scraped the sky
Didn’t you come here for escape
I can only at attention
Watching your halo crashing down
I just need to get my hand on an ear that’s listening
Your hostility leaves footprints all over my dentures
And the four corners of the cage you built do not show a crack
Wake me tonight before you end up lost within my dreams
So please don’t wash away that guilty tide
It washes away all the pain
My paper skin needs duct tape as the glue has made it burn
I’ve infused my jaw with sedatives and emancipated dreams
Your pulse it shows no distance has been crawled on bended knee
Though my sight has been sewn away from infidelity
Take me away to a place where your mind was schemed
So please don’t wash away that guilty tide
It washes away all the pain
Did you throw away the crown I asked to take hold of
Did they melt it down for you just like they wanted
When will you let go of these plagues trying to take you hostage
Will you let them gangrene and grow moss upon the soul
Am I the end of the lies that keep you warm
Warning of what freezes behind the sun
Does it not matter that I’ve become your feathers
Flying you away from Icaris grave
If you decide to pull this plug and crawl into the stethoscope you know
I will not turn away from this light just to push back water from your sockets
Eradicated feelings dripping from my tree
As the taunting moonlight drowns beneath the black sky you drew
Don’t wear those wings with pride the feather black from atrophy
I am that guilty spot that stained your sleeve where you wore your heart
It must in the memoirs where the truth casts a draught
A plastic hippocampus melts away
Where is this poly colored rope reaching from
That wraps a noose around no appendage
Was this the first time you scraped the sky
Didn’t you come here for escape
I can only at attention
Watching your halo crashing down
Sunday, March 2, 2008
Dear Lupe
Dear Lupe finds the rocks I've fallen on
she sweeps them away from my feet
In return I shed away my con
for her, my conscience wont retreat
Dear Lupe awakes me when my eyes freeze
When the sun rises where my back stares at the sky
she reminds me to get off my knees
and give the world another try
Dear Lupe shows me a path I can walk
to stand on two feet with shoulders drawn back
she lines the floor with the most visible of chalk
so as to avoid my falling in between the cracks
Dear Lupe is a girl who'll never care
if my fortunes start to wain
she'll be sitting by my side without regretful stare
she's the one who keeps me sane
Dear Lupe, sort this letter first among the "Dears"
for you no longer have this soul to moderate
If you ever find yourself drowning in tears
Ill be there to resuscitate
Dear Lupe, I hope the light you shine never fades
for without it, I would be forever blind
without it, my humanity and care would cascade
without it, I would shut down...all because of your heart so kind
she sweeps them away from my feet
In return I shed away my con
for her, my conscience wont retreat
Dear Lupe awakes me when my eyes freeze
When the sun rises where my back stares at the sky
she reminds me to get off my knees
and give the world another try
Dear Lupe shows me a path I can walk
to stand on two feet with shoulders drawn back
she lines the floor with the most visible of chalk
so as to avoid my falling in between the cracks
Dear Lupe is a girl who'll never care
if my fortunes start to wain
she'll be sitting by my side without regretful stare
she's the one who keeps me sane
Dear Lupe, sort this letter first among the "Dears"
for you no longer have this soul to moderate
If you ever find yourself drowning in tears
Ill be there to resuscitate
Dear Lupe, I hope the light you shine never fades
for without it, I would be forever blind
without it, my humanity and care would cascade
without it, I would shut down...all because of your heart so kind
An Ode To Wilfred
Wilfred chose a path that led away from me
Though both melancholy
We had hoped the separation fit us well
but alas, only time could tell
The weeks went by and our thoughts drifted
new ventures foreseen, anxiety lifted
for awhile we had forgotten our company kept
and the days of joy that seemingly lept
The days where authority wained
as our thoughts upon the floor they had drained
we took fun in gallons rather than sips
almost swearing our flesh joined at the hip
Tires swung and ponds swan
a blind eye blunk at the damned
for us the world need no longer spin
because if a new day dawned, our paradise simply began again
We were the princes of all we touched
We were the limp who need not a crutch
We were the rulers of birds, trees, and toads
We were the kings of the old dirt road
As time moved on, we were no longer a thought in each others mind
but the spring still bloomed, the axis still turns, and the world still kind
for, come the day our minds meet once more
the days of old will shine along with new as if we never closed the door
Wilfred chose a path where he couldn't stay
and I wouldn't have had it any other way
Though both melancholy
We had hoped the separation fit us well
but alas, only time could tell
The weeks went by and our thoughts drifted
new ventures foreseen, anxiety lifted
for awhile we had forgotten our company kept
and the days of joy that seemingly lept
The days where authority wained
as our thoughts upon the floor they had drained
we took fun in gallons rather than sips
almost swearing our flesh joined at the hip
Tires swung and ponds swan
a blind eye blunk at the damned
for us the world need no longer spin
because if a new day dawned, our paradise simply began again
We were the princes of all we touched
We were the limp who need not a crutch
We were the rulers of birds, trees, and toads
We were the kings of the old dirt road
As time moved on, we were no longer a thought in each others mind
but the spring still bloomed, the axis still turns, and the world still kind
for, come the day our minds meet once more
the days of old will shine along with new as if we never closed the door
Wilfred chose a path where he couldn't stay
and I wouldn't have had it any other way
Ghost of the Pale Moon Light (Version 2)
You carried me from the thresholds of death
And pulled me lovingly into your arms
The wind carries the sweet nothing of your breath
And into my thoughts, free from harm
The storm, which caused fear
Is trapped within your embrace
It drowned the floor with tears
But left intact the beauty upon your face
The sun burns with passion
Like my love for you it will never extinguish
It warms my soul in kind fashion
Warm with respect of admiration, I cannot distinguish
Finally the moon
lulled by lunar light
My final peace. Before soon…
I wake in fright…
You’ll find this letter, melancholy to find
That now you’re only an apparition in my twisted mind.
(Version 1 can be found very soon in the Erohed Crowns blogs)
And pulled me lovingly into your arms
The wind carries the sweet nothing of your breath
And into my thoughts, free from harm
The storm, which caused fear
Is trapped within your embrace
It drowned the floor with tears
But left intact the beauty upon your face
The sun burns with passion
Like my love for you it will never extinguish
It warms my soul in kind fashion
Warm with respect of admiration, I cannot distinguish
Finally the moon
lulled by lunar light
My final peace. Before soon…
I wake in fright…
You’ll find this letter, melancholy to find
That now you’re only an apparition in my twisted mind.
(Version 1 can be found very soon in the Erohed Crowns blogs)
Nativity Of Gold
Broken toys strewn across the floor
Of a young boy’s land of innocence
Candles lit, to shine a path of shame
Away from this plastic heaven
Baby’s crying in the next room
I check the cradle and all I see
Is a little boy made of gold
With his halo glued on
Carolers sing their souls out to an empty house
Made of strings brighter than the sun
Green eyes as far as any eye can see
And they’re carrying boxes of decay
A winter so cold
A savior so bold
To give his name away to gold
The lives he saved are sold
Baby’s crying in the next room
But a cradle is all I see
Of a young boy’s land of innocence
Candles lit, to shine a path of shame
Away from this plastic heaven
Baby’s crying in the next room
I check the cradle and all I see
Is a little boy made of gold
With his halo glued on
Carolers sing their souls out to an empty house
Made of strings brighter than the sun
Green eyes as far as any eye can see
And they’re carrying boxes of decay
A winter so cold
A savior so bold
To give his name away to gold
The lives he saved are sold
Baby’s crying in the next room
But a cradle is all I see
Christmas Eyes
I don’t want to wait for the sun to kiss the sky
I just want to wake to a tree so filled with light
All the toys thrown across the floor wrapped in love
Smiles shining down on me from the sky above
It’s Christmas today, but you’re still away
Why don’t you stay
Received a kiss on the cheek from my darling mother
Received a hug from a man she pretends to love
Received these gifts with love from all others
I give them my soul which soars just like a dove
It’s Christmas today, but you’re still away
Why can’t you stay
Without your breath, the world will continue it’s turn
But without you all the light of joy begin to burn
Where are your eyes for their sight I continue to yearn
Is this a gift I may never earn?
It’s Christmas today, but you’re still away
Why didn’t you stay?
I just want to wake to a tree so filled with light
All the toys thrown across the floor wrapped in love
Smiles shining down on me from the sky above
It’s Christmas today, but you’re still away
Why don’t you stay
Received a kiss on the cheek from my darling mother
Received a hug from a man she pretends to love
Received these gifts with love from all others
I give them my soul which soars just like a dove
It’s Christmas today, but you’re still away
Why can’t you stay
Without your breath, the world will continue it’s turn
But without you all the light of joy begin to burn
Where are your eyes for their sight I continue to yearn
Is this a gift I may never earn?
It’s Christmas today, but you’re still away
Why didn’t you stay?
The Deciduous Wing
I. Hallowed, Thy Name
Tell me its over or tell me a lie
I’ve been to the garden, but no one is there
Did you tear down the castle you said you built in my name
Did you build up the walls you said you tore down for me
Why is this door closed and lock broken
I hold my head high and hear voices inside
I know you are there
Did you board up the windows youself
Your eyes the knives that pierce my skin
Your touch the iron that burns my soul
Your voice enough to spite a Gods’
I hope you blade doesn’t rust too much
Now you’ve disowned me
Spit in my face
You’ll block off my screams
And tape up your ears
Slice off my tongue
You’ll burn out my eyes
I know you’ll take solace in my vicarious demise
But not if my dagger beats beats your thoughts to your back
Your dirty fangs will drip with sin
Until the day your penance pays your toll
I know the words you spoke in trust
But now my skin will burn at your touch
You’ll see a burning soul within
Before I throw your corpse to the cold
While an obviously blinded God
Struggles to stand without his crutch
II. Thy Kingdom Come
I’ve spent so long
Living in the shadow you’ve strapped me to
I’ll take you with me
When Thanos gives me the key
If it’s so wrong
To throw back the arrow hurled at my head
Then shackle me now
And throw me to the sticks
As you walk out on the clouds you stole
I hope you remember my name in your cries
As our wings were once one
I’ll construct walls in your blood
III. Deliver Us…
I had only wished for the clocks to paste together
The past I had swallowed whole
Instead I choke on your feathers
As they now fall off your rotting wings
I had only wished you were there to tell
Me all about the gates for which we climbed
Instead you cut my wrist with
My own harp’s fragile strings
IV: …From Evil
When you die, will you think of my face when you scream out:
“Let the burning stop
let the aching quell
If I extend my hand now
Will I escape from hell”
The laughter will rush
Right through my lips
And ill crush your fingers
As you drown in the river styx
I’ll levitate
You’ll crash and burn
Your halo sinks
To make a fitting noose
A sorry will not
Repay your debt
Breathe one last time
Your life ends here
V: Now and Forever
No Wings
No flight
No pity
No sight
I’m lost
And I’ll never be searched for
Again
My name has been smeared by my own hands
Forever to swim without you
I was wrong
I was wrong
Circle number nine
Fits around my waist
Belt fits so nicely
Around a sinner like me
You were at peace
When I started this war
You fit your halo
While I wore my horns
Now I checked your chest
And heard a silent beat
Betwixt your eyes
Lives a life no more
I see the mirror
I see I’m the sheep that turned black
I’m not the hero
I thought I was
A sorry will not
Repay my debt
Pray one last time
God’s pity ends here.
Tell me its over or tell me a lie
I’ve been to the garden, but no one is there
Did you tear down the castle you said you built in my name
Did you build up the walls you said you tore down for me
Why is this door closed and lock broken
I hold my head high and hear voices inside
I know you are there
Did you board up the windows youself
Your eyes the knives that pierce my skin
Your touch the iron that burns my soul
Your voice enough to spite a Gods’
I hope you blade doesn’t rust too much
Now you’ve disowned me
Spit in my face
You’ll block off my screams
And tape up your ears
Slice off my tongue
You’ll burn out my eyes
I know you’ll take solace in my vicarious demise
But not if my dagger beats beats your thoughts to your back
Your dirty fangs will drip with sin
Until the day your penance pays your toll
I know the words you spoke in trust
But now my skin will burn at your touch
You’ll see a burning soul within
Before I throw your corpse to the cold
While an obviously blinded God
Struggles to stand without his crutch
II. Thy Kingdom Come
I’ve spent so long
Living in the shadow you’ve strapped me to
I’ll take you with me
When Thanos gives me the key
If it’s so wrong
To throw back the arrow hurled at my head
Then shackle me now
And throw me to the sticks
As you walk out on the clouds you stole
I hope you remember my name in your cries
As our wings were once one
I’ll construct walls in your blood
III. Deliver Us…
I had only wished for the clocks to paste together
The past I had swallowed whole
Instead I choke on your feathers
As they now fall off your rotting wings
I had only wished you were there to tell
Me all about the gates for which we climbed
Instead you cut my wrist with
My own harp’s fragile strings
IV: …From Evil
When you die, will you think of my face when you scream out:
“Let the burning stop
let the aching quell
If I extend my hand now
Will I escape from hell”
The laughter will rush
Right through my lips
And ill crush your fingers
As you drown in the river styx
I’ll levitate
You’ll crash and burn
Your halo sinks
To make a fitting noose
A sorry will not
Repay your debt
Breathe one last time
Your life ends here
V: Now and Forever
No Wings
No flight
No pity
No sight
I’m lost
And I’ll never be searched for
Again
My name has been smeared by my own hands
Forever to swim without you
I was wrong
I was wrong
Circle number nine
Fits around my waist
Belt fits so nicely
Around a sinner like me
You were at peace
When I started this war
You fit your halo
While I wore my horns
Now I checked your chest
And heard a silent beat
Betwixt your eyes
Lives a life no more
I see the mirror
I see I’m the sheep that turned black
I’m not the hero
I thought I was
A sorry will not
Repay my debt
Pray one last time
God’s pity ends here.
Zero Degrees Kelvin
I’ll let the cold air in
The icy winds will freeze my thoughts in place.
The world will stop turning and I don’t think I would care at all
The chill freezes down my spine
And my eyelids shut to keep my pupils from turning to ice
While my brain aches for more
The sun never rises, and the fires never spread
The ice is scrawled all over the naked eye
And I have thrown my last match away
I’ll let the cold air in and leave the window broken
The icy winds will freeze my thoughts in place.
The world will stop turning and I don’t think I would care at all
The chill freezes down my spine
And my eyelids shut to keep my pupils from turning to ice
While my brain aches for more
The sun never rises, and the fires never spread
The ice is scrawled all over the naked eye
And I have thrown my last match away
I’ll let the cold air in and leave the window broken
5:27 p.m.
The sand falls at the speed of light
But our feet tread on cement
We sing our songs of blissful delight
Though our mouths are sewn shut from mournful lament
We’ve locked our open doors
Before it was time to have them shut
We’ve drowned in rain as it poured
While we were waiting for the sun
Hiding behind our wall away from crime
Judging eyes no longer stare
We’ll stay here until the end of time
For a chance to escape is no longer there
We’ll kill the hours….
…and wait just as long.
But our feet tread on cement
We sing our songs of blissful delight
Though our mouths are sewn shut from mournful lament
We’ve locked our open doors
Before it was time to have them shut
We’ve drowned in rain as it poured
While we were waiting for the sun
Hiding behind our wall away from crime
Judging eyes no longer stare
We’ll stay here until the end of time
For a chance to escape is no longer there
We’ll kill the hours….
…and wait just as long.
The Lighthouse (A Candle For Raul)
Aboard the ship
Is it sinking yet?
Is it bleeding the oil that you greed
Had you feasted in splendor
Are you taking in water
Or does the fuel spill too fast
Do you hear the telephone…there’s no answer
I swear to you
I’ll patch the hole you carved yourself
I can quell all the chaos that downs you
And you’ll hear my screaming forever
First voyage to last
I’m here for you
But you can’t seems to see me from this lighthouse
I’ll be screaming forever
Jump ship…bail out…
Man overboard
Yet you stay in a doomed ship of never
Can you see the iceberg ahead, or the passengers that drown
If not, I doubt you’ll see the housing that will save you
Ship has sunk, no one found
Search party lost in the wreckage
Frozen in disbelief: broken thoughts, broken hearts
I knew you from the beginning…and I saw your whole ending
Couldn’t you see the candle lighting the safe house...burning forever
I’m screaming to the heavens that your remains will be found
Nuisance screams
Lucid dreams
Burning oil for the hell where you’ll toil
Did you never see me scream from the lighthouse?
Is it sinking yet?
Is it bleeding the oil that you greed
Had you feasted in splendor
Are you taking in water
Or does the fuel spill too fast
Do you hear the telephone…there’s no answer
I swear to you
I’ll patch the hole you carved yourself
I can quell all the chaos that downs you
And you’ll hear my screaming forever
First voyage to last
I’m here for you
But you can’t seems to see me from this lighthouse
I’ll be screaming forever
Jump ship…bail out…
Man overboard
Yet you stay in a doomed ship of never
Can you see the iceberg ahead, or the passengers that drown
If not, I doubt you’ll see the housing that will save you
Ship has sunk, no one found
Search party lost in the wreckage
Frozen in disbelief: broken thoughts, broken hearts
I knew you from the beginning…and I saw your whole ending
Couldn’t you see the candle lighting the safe house...burning forever
I’m screaming to the heavens that your remains will be found
Nuisance screams
Lucid dreams
Burning oil for the hell where you’ll toil
Did you never see me scream from the lighthouse?
Twilight Pulse
The morning drowns too fast
Into lunar lakes of lament
The blue skies an outcast
To hearts sealed in cement
Standing on starlight
Staring at sheets of nothing
Drinking the night
Just to feel something
Without grievance for dawn
Another day slips away
Into another black hole. Gone.
I only wish that you had stayed
But now I feel myself reversed in thought
Praising a clock of yester year
Only to find that all I was taught
Has been engulfed in regret and fear
Wasted emotions I have to fight.
My pulse will no longer be held together by tape
If you just open my eyes tonight
And we’ll escape…we’ll escape
Into lunar lakes of lament
The blue skies an outcast
To hearts sealed in cement
Standing on starlight
Staring at sheets of nothing
Drinking the night
Just to feel something
Without grievance for dawn
Another day slips away
Into another black hole. Gone.
I only wish that you had stayed
But now I feel myself reversed in thought
Praising a clock of yester year
Only to find that all I was taught
Has been engulfed in regret and fear
Wasted emotions I have to fight.
My pulse will no longer be held together by tape
If you just open my eyes tonight
And we’ll escape…we’ll escape
OM
Disclaimer:
Except for "Sleep Apnea", every poem will be without interpretation. Which means, it is up to YOU to decipher what each poem is about. It may be wrong, bu it's your point of view. If it means something to you that I wasn't going for, then so be it.
Enjoy.
Except for "Sleep Apnea", every poem will be without interpretation. Which means, it is up to YOU to decipher what each poem is about. It may be wrong, bu it's your point of view. If it means something to you that I wasn't going for, then so be it.
Enjoy.
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